Here’s to you…

My first blog post under my own name…

To new beginnings. 

There was a time I had the dirtiest mouth. The filthiest thoughts would consume my mind. I’d like to think these things still are evident but I have to say they’re becoming less as the months pass by.

Last year was the hardest year. I got divorced. Had to get used the fact I’m now alone with my kids. I’m mom and dad. Changed jobs. It’s been manic.

Noticed I haven’t used the word fuck once yet?! Ok well, now I did. 

Aaaanyway… Moving back to last year. Last year I met awesome people. Had amazing orgasms and I’d like to think they enjoyed it too. Otherwise, they would STILL text or want more right?

Long story short. I met ‘what I’d like to think’ is my soulmate. 

We had the most amazing conversations. We’ve shed so many tears for each other. Missed each other. Kissed. And let me say this. Everytime we touched, there was intense electricity that jolted through us. Everytime we kissed we wanted to rip each other apart. Until finally one day we fucked. I’ll be the first to admit. We did not make love. It was raw. Intense. The next morning I was blue all over. My body felt as if I was thrown from the top floor of that penthouse suite and I could move for a day. Delicious pain when through my body like a wrecking ball everything I moved a limb. 

That next day, I lost part of me.

That day, I lost my best friend.

That day, when he penetrated me for the first time after months of wet panties and him being a walking hardon, we made the biggest mistake of our lives. 

For those who’ve read Scarred. You’ll know what I’m talking about.

Now, as I sit here writing this, I still want my friend back. I’ve texted him putting in my request for our friendship. This was his response. 

‘I won’t survive it.’

That moment. My heart was ripped from my chest. That moment our friendship was lost forever. 

All these events led to the death of Mrs. S…

When Mrs. S… Thoughts became my reality. 

I will now write to as me. 

Thanks to all of you for your support over the years. 

Here’s to you…

As always,

#Spanks, #Licks, #Wanks & #Blows

M